Voice of hopeless

Well,

My name is Guna..

I m currently an Electronics Engineering student..

My life although started with great difficulties, where i did my primary schooling in the city and Secondary schooling had many difficulties..

I'm a man who don't believe in a second chance.

We all know that "Do or Die"

I'm little emotional and much sensitive..

I don't have any characteristics of possessiveness, because i don't like such thing, i m always a free man and believe in God for all things .

i follow these phrases where my secondary school taught this to me

"Believe in God"

"In God We Trust"

Now the original Path of my hopeless life

I have had some chances in the beginning , but due to critical situation of my health, i lost much of my energy , this delayed my brain working faster, i have been pinned down in hospital for 5 days.

Doc told i should have complete rest for 75 days(Minimum) and 3 months maximum .

But what can i say, i had engineering exams..

That is when i was discharged from the hospital , i had to attend my Practicals exactly two days after my discharge...With all difficulties i prepared, i did my best, but i did not get any output.

Even people knew my condition before, but i was not shown any mercy, i was laid down with minimum pass marks..Thank God i passed ..

But there are things which took place when i was in hospital.

I was told that i will not get any internal marks, if i'm not attending the model Examinations..

I was pinned down in hospital during my model examinations...

Daily 1 liter of Glucose and 9 pennicilins with 1 nomal injection and 7 other injections has to go into my blood to save my life and recover...

But i'm little brave, i took doc's permission and went to coll and wrote my model examination and i returned to hospital after finishing exam..

The worst part, i took my books to the hospital and i read for the exams in the hospital with my hand pinned to a 500ml Glucose while my mother helped me in traversing the Glucose in my veins ..(this cause less pain , so the glucose will enter the veins smoothly)

Nobody would have done this, but i did...But the net result, none showed me mercy, got very less internals.

Doc told me to play Games in computer and in PS to increase my brain activity, because Lepto disease will delay the brain activities, and also he told me not to strain much with books.

Even though i excelled in some subjects in Externals, but unfortunately i failed in a subject.

I solemnly hope that i will clear in Revaluation. I gotta look at the photocopy on the reason of failure

This is the point, where i consider myself as hopeless and this is the voice of hopeless.

If u are reading this, for sure that your eyes will fill with tears.